Have you ever contemplated suicide?

Question

Have you ever contemplated suicide?
Have you ever reached such depth of hopelessness and despair that you contemplated suicide and wanted to end your own life? If so what was it that prevented you from going through with it? What made you NOT act on the thoughts?

Answer

You know it is very common for people to contemplate suicide. People just are not as willing to admit it because of the stigma that is attached to it.That it is a sin and it is illeagal. The reason why it is attempted and comtemplated many many times is because it is a sad fact that people do more to tear others down then they ever spend time to build them up so they feel life is worth living.brbrFor most of my life I thought I had holes in my soul and a terrible emptyiness of the world consumed me. I thought I was cursed, rejected, unloved, not cared about and little of it was true or necessary to live a good life. I could not walk when I was thirteen and so I would save my pain pills and take them all at once and not tell anyone what I had done it was a miracle I did not die several times. My family had rejected me and even though I am older and am not the same person I was they never really call to say hello. But I have learned I do not need to be validated as a person, trade sex for love, or drink or do drugs just to fit in. I was always born a whole person it was just a mistake that I ever thought that I was anything less. Others have a way of making you feel less than what you are. Just learn never believe a lie or let thoughts settle and stew in your head so you think that that edge of a cliff is beckoning you to jump.brbrMy pursuit of the truth and personal walk in faith has literally saved my life and I am much happier, because of it. After my back was healed I had a chance to become a rescuse swimmer in the Navy, I was one of the best swimmers and runners in my class but because I doubted myself and did not have a firm fountation that I could be strong enough I lost it and was even given a second chance to become a storm chaser, but I kept convinceing myself that I needed help when there was nothing wrong with me. So I asked for help and mostly it was just I needed to get my life straight, but because of it I lost my job, they put me on a psychward in a millitary hospital for a month and I had to break their magnetically sealed door and try to escape before they figured out their was never anything wrong with me in the first place.brbrNow no one should ever have to go through all that I have gone through to figure out their worth. It had to be God that saved me and God is my father. It was when I was finally out of the millitary that I realized I had worth. I met someone more miserable than I was and I did not think that was possible. We had a hard time and our first child had to have heart surgery. I had too give up all my problems to God because there was nothing I could do. But she is fine I have two healthy smiling children and I have nine grandchidren. That think I am the coolest grandma because I ride all the rollercoasters with them. Life is a journey of challenges and you never know what you miss if you just give up, because I could have given up along time ago, but I never did. So for me it had to be an act of God litterally. brbrAlso Ive had survived six car accidents and one heart attack and Im just so yes God literally saved me lots times. But life is good now and Im happy. Cyber hugs